Surgery Update

I survived yet another surgery. Hopefully it’ll be my last. By all accounts the surgery went well. I went in to the OR around 10am on Wednesday and woke up again around 3pm (although the surgery itself only took a few hours). Upon waking I wasn’t puking all over myself like last time (thank god!)…

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Surgery Time

Tomorrow is my big surgery day. The reality of this has been slowly sinking in since we left Ohio on Sunday. I’ve got nervous energy coursing through my veins… random twinges of discomfort in my breast… and this aching pain in the pit of my loins – like my lady parts know they’re about to…

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Heart Home❤️

Today is Terri Luanna’s 46th Birthday… Here she is ringing in 37—pre-cancer, a little over a year after her mother died, teeming with life.   Hands down, that was my favorite birthday celebration with her. Terri had an enhanced capacity for cultivating contagious bliss, so naturally, when she invited us to celebrate in her beloved…

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THE LESSONS CONTAINED IN THE SUFFERING…

On this wintery, blustery day, I went searching for the perfect epitaph for Terri’s bench. So naturally, I went straight to the source; gracefulwomanwarrior. Back to the beginning… Two hours and many tears later, I made it through the first year of Terri’s blog. God, could that girl write. And inspire. And energize. I am…

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Life and Death

                The latest scan results are in.  The cancer has spread. In addition to the cancer in my lymph nodes and around my left breast implant, the cancer has also spread to my sternum, ribs, clavicle, pelvis, vertebrae, spine, neck, and into my liver.  Plus, I still have liters of fluid surrounding my left lung.  And it turned out there is a fracture in the left femoral neck ( which explained the hip pain I’d been…

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The Tides Are Changing

It’s been another rough couple of weeks…  But i feel myself finally starting to pull out of the blackness and into a better place.A big part of that has to do with the amazing outpouring of love, prayers, blessings, uplifting and encouraging words, and donations that have come my way since the last post.  Thank…

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Biopsy News & Finding The Courage To Set Sail

Spring is on its way!  I can feel it in the air.  The birds have returned.  The snow is melting.  The sun is shining.  What a difference it makes in my spirit!  I’m feeling renewed.  Hopeful.  Full of gratitude. Last week we had an amazing visit with Auntie ‘Cole who showered us with her playful…

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Turning Points and More Reflections from Europe

Happy New Year! Been a while since my last post…  Guess the holidays do that to ya.  I was just re-reading all the comments from my last post and decided in this moment to make one of my goals for 2014 to respond and connect more with everyone reading this blog.  You guys are amazing!…

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Questioning My Beliefs

I’m sitting here in the chemo chair as the drugs drip into my body…  Questioning life…  Questioning my beliefs…  Questioning it all. Life is real confusing these days.  Each day brings new questions, fresh insights, and a tumble of emotions.  I spend my days perpetually on the verge of tears.  I feel hyper sensitive to…

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