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Happy Valentine’s Day everyone!! So the big news you’ve all been waiting for…  My lovely white blood count…  Well, unfortunately (or fortunately depending on how you look at it), my count only rose by 200.  Putting me at 1,600 this morning.  Not high enough for chemo. But I did get my Herceptin (and a bonus…

That damn cold has had me in such a funk these last few days!  I blame it for everything!  My days without exercise…  The cravings for sugary and empty carb treats…  Not finding time for meditation or guided imagery…  And for giving me this big ol’ case of the “blahs”.  Thank god it’s on its…

It’s been an interesting couple of days. Yesterday I woke up feeling like crap.  That damn cold put me in a bad space.  I was feeling sorry for myself and got into a bad case of the “fuck its”…  As in – Fuck it!  I’m just gonna eat almost a whole bag of Stacy’s cinnamon…

Never a good idea to tempt fate.  Everyone around me (including hubby) got a cold over the last week and I, on more than one occasion, commented, “Oh – how interesting that everyone but the cancer patient has a cold!”…  Then of course 3 days later, I too, got the cold.  You wanna get cocky?? …

Wow!  What a day! So I finally did it…  Chopped off my hair (or what was left of it).  Hubby hooked me up and gave me a fashionable buzz cut with a fade.  I think I kinda look like Hillary Swank in Boys Don’t Cry.  And Miss M watched the whole thing and then took…

Fear not everyone – I am feeling better. In the days since my not-so-fun reaction to the Leukine shot I have rallied back to life and gone on to create some beautiful memories.  At this point, any opportunity to create a beautiful memory and I’m there.  That’s what life is about. Yesterday was yet another…

The last 24 hours have been pretty rough. Last night I woke up at 3am – overcome with the chills.  Shaking uncontrollably.  Begging hubby to layer me with blankets, towels, bathrobes…  Anything to warm me up.  Ended up with a slight fever.  And then there was the unrelenting headache that took almost 7 hours and…

First of all let me say thank you – once again – to everyone out there who’s praying and channeling good energy my way.  Yesterday’s chemo session was one of the smoothest thus far.  No extreme reactions.  Faster than usual.  And minimal chemo foggyness at the end of the day. I am convinced this had…

Got the green light today to go ahead with chemo again.  Yay! My white blood cell count needed to be around 2,000 and it was 2,500.  Apparently a “normal” person’s WBC count is usually in the range of 5,000 – 10,000.  Last week my count was 1,200. Understandably, I’ve now become slightly obsessed with raising…

When you’re faced with your own mortality it causes you to reevaluate what’s important. At the ripe old age of 37, death is not something I really contemplated before now.  And then – wham!  You’re diagnosed with stage 4 cancer and your whole perspective changes. I know some people facing serious illness and terminal disease…