Having Cancer Does Not Feel Good

A few days ago the NY Times ran an article in their magazine entitled “Our Feel-Good War on Breast Cancer” by Peggy Orenstein. Everywhere I looked people were re-posting it, adding links to facebook, emailing it to me.  Yesterday, I finally got the chance to read it. Orenstein takes on a few important topics…  …

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Finding a Reason to Live

I am back from yet another trip to NYC.  This time to meet with a potential holistic cancer team in Rockland County.   Although I am not entirely sold on this new team, the trip was not a total loss.  I discovered some tweaks I can make to my supplement & diet regime…  I learned…

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Everyone Needs A Little Rest & Relaxation

Our recent trip to Mexico reminded me of the importance of taking time for rest and relaxation.  To regroup and destress.  Unwind and do a lot of nothing. I realize this is another integral piece of my healing puzzle. Cancer thrives on stress.  Most diseases do.  When we are overworked, overextended, and pushed to the…

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The Psychological Piece

One of the most important pieces of my healing puzzle has been, and continues to be, the psychological and emotional.  No matter how healthy I eat, or how much I exercise, if I do not address the layers underneath, nothing will truly change. I believe for true healing to occur we must peel away the…

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The Waiting Game

Tomorrow I find out the results of my most recent set of scans.  The results determine a whole host of things – most importantly whether or not surgery is still an option.  As long as the cancer has not grown or spread since my last scan in April I’m good to go for the mastectomy.…

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Making Sense of the Mental Mess

I just had a slight breakdown in the MRI machine today. Part of my work in therapy is to allow myself to feel emotions.  So when I felt panicked, sad, and angry in the MRI machine today I just went with it. So there I was, splayed out in superman position – boobs expertly positioned…

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Let The Scans Begin!

Tomorrow commences the scanning ritual I must now endure every 4 months for the rest of my life.  Except this time around I’ve got some extra scans thrown in for my surgery prep.  It’s so freakin’ time consuming. My schedule tomorrow includes a 10am injection (for my afternoon bone scan), an 11am psychotherapy appointment (in…

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Finding Happiness at The Sweetest Place on Earth

I’ve just spent the most amazing weekend with a bunch of fantastic people on a gorgeous farm on Salt Spring Island. Pure heaven. The magic began on the journey there, when Miss M, Auntie L, Auntie ‘Cole, and I took a tiny 12-seater float plane from Vancouver to Salt Spring Island. Taking off and landing…

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A Sigh Of Relief

After a bit of a rough week I am feeling a lot better today. Mostly because I found out the aches and pains i’ve been feeling are likely side effects from the Herceptin i’m taking. While I was killing time at Penn Station yesterday, waiting for the Long Island Railroad, I googled Herceptin side effects…

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Therapize Me

So a few weeks ago I stopped seeing therapist # 2.  Damn, it’s hard to find the right therapist. But I still need to find someone.  I need to understand what’s going on in my head.  I need to look at the patterns & defenses that may have contributed to the development of my cancer. …

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