Tomorrow is my big surgery day.
The reality of this has been slowly sinking in since we left Ohio on Sunday. I’ve got nervous energy coursing through my veins… random twinges of discomfort in my breast… and this aching pain in the pit of my loins – like my lady parts know they’re about to lose one of their own.
Miss M and I took a 2 day long road trip from Ohio to Massachusetts – arriving at Auntie L’s house late Monday night. Auntie L, her hubby Uncle M and the rest of my family have agreed to take care of Miss M while I’m in NYC for the surgery. God bless them. This morning I had to say goodbye to her. Knowing I won’t see her for a full week (the longest we’ve ever been apart) adds more angst to my already anxiety full body. Sigh…
Thankfully I am now safely in my beloved NYC… Sitting in Astoria Park, looking out over the East River & the Manhattan skyline… Having some lunch and writing this blog. It always feels so soothing and comforting to be here. NY will always be home to me. The place I feel most comfortable. Most at ease. Most like myself.
And in 1 hour hubby arrives into Laguardia airport. And we get to spend one glorious afternoon & evening alone together in the city – wandering the streets, going out for dinner, & maybe hitting up my favorite spot – Washington Square Park – for some people watching & music. Some quality tIme to enjoy each other and enjoy the city.
Interestingly, I just received an amazing text from hubby. He said on his first flight today he sat beside a woman named Jeanne (the same name as my mom) who is a Buddhist, dancer, and writer (just like my mom) and a fan of my dad’s work. How about that for serendipitous events and reassuring messages from the Universe??!!?
I know in my heart of hearts that my mom is watching over me. That the Universe’s energy, which is in all of us, and always surrounding us, is channeling good energy my way. I feel it radiating from the pores of the Big Apple and embracing me from afar with all the love and good energy you all are sending my way.
Thanks again to everyone for your support in this journey. I am in the midst of a very difficult chapter in my life, but I know that this too shall pass – as everything does.
As my mom always said, “The only constant in life is change.”
Love to all. – T