Changes… Changes… Changes… That’s what life is all about.
Yesterday, my fabulous in-laws from Brazil finally returned back home to Rio de Janeiro after staying with us for 2 glorious months. We truly loved having them in our home and in our lives. I adore my in-laws.
Today, the house feels empty and silent.
It’s always a bit rough in the days immediately after our visitors go home. A bit lonely. A bit sad. People often assume that it’s stressful or taxing for us to have visitors all the time, but the reality is that hubby, Miss M, and I love it. (Although I’m sure that has something to do with the caliber of family and friends we have visiting us too). We are so lucky to have such loving and caring people in our lives and we cherish the time we get to spend with them.
Now, for the first time in over a year, we have no guests scheduled to stay with us. How weird.
Of course, I can never stay put (or alone) for too long… I have another trip planned for next week . This time Miss M and I are heading to Toronto (with a quick jaunt to NY thrown into the mix for my LAST appointment with the plastic surgeon until the spring). It’s been way too long since I’ve been to T.O. Miss M and I are psyched to see all our friends there.
When I return from Toronto it’ll be time for my next set of scans… PET scan… Echocardiogram… Possible CT scan… The results of which will determine my next steps.
At this point, my goal is still to get off all pharmaceuticals. For however long I can swing it. Because they make me feel like crap. And at this point I believe natural methods can do just as good of a job at preventing a reoccurrence as the meds can. Without all the added crap and side effects.
I want to reset my body. Have some time to rebalance myself without interference. Start from scratch. Really feel what’s going on inside of me.
If my scans come back clean (which I expect them to – a girl’s gotta stay positive right?) then I plan to wean myself off the meds and use natural ways to keep my body in balance and the cancer at bay.
I feel especially empowered to do this after meeting with my naturopath today in Columbus. We reviewed results of the urine and saliva tests I did last month to measure hormone and adrenal levels and the results are good. I was most excited to hear that my estrogen levels are at a very low and healthy level. They are also in balance with my progesterone and testosterone levels. And my 2/16 OH estrogen ratio was above average (which is a predictor of decreased cancer risk for estrogen sensitive tissue).
This is fantastic news!! This means my levels are where they need to be. My estrogen positive cancer does not have any extra estrogen to feed off of. My estrogen has been suppressed without having to take the hormonal meds like tamoxifen or arimidex that everyone keeps trying to push on me. Seems you can balance hormones naturally! Ha! Ha!
My naturopath will continue to monitor my hormone levels in the months to come and together we will pursue all possible pathways of creating balance – body/mind/spirit - to keep cancer from coming back.
Choosing to chart my own path is challenging but necessary. Necessary for my health. Necessary for my growth. Necessary to support my new desire to speak my mind instead of doing things based on what other people think. Necessary to stay true to myself.
Sometimes you gotta do what’s necessary.