Ages ago my cousin Jamie told me I had to read the book The Hunger Games. After hearing the premise of the story I thought, “Oh – how barbaric and depressing! There’s no way I’m reading that.” Flash-forward to a few weeks ago when my favorite neighbor and good friend Sam tossed the book my way and encouraged me to read it. It sat on my shelf for a while. But then I finally picked it up. And let me tell ya, I could not put that book down. While it was just as disturbing as I thought it would be, I still got hooked and devoured the whole thing in a few days.
Then I started thinking about the parallels between my life and the kids in the hunger games. How I’ve been thrown into the arena with cancer and am now in a constant battle for my life. I too must stay strong and healthy… Mentally and spiritually fit… Train hard to stay one step ahead… Gather as much information as possible… Develop strategies to outsmart my enemy. Cancer is devious and cunning and stands poised to attack at any time. I need to constantly be on alert. Ready. If I give cancer any opportunity to take over my body and my life it will.
One thing I know for sure, is that my strategy does not involve sitting back and waiting to see what the cancer will do. When your life is on the line you must be proactive. So I am doing everything I possibly can to beat this beast down and keep it down. From going vegan, to cutting out sugar, to exercising every day, switching my under-wire bras to soft cup ones, taking vitamins & supplements, trying alternative treatments, ditching my antiperspirant… I don’t care if it’s been proven or not – if there is a chance it can help me, I am willing to consider it. Why the fuck not?
And what I don’t understand is why some folks with life threatening illnesses do not make these changes. Why not do whatever it takes to keep living? Why not question your doctors? Why not research all possible solutions? Why not get a second, third, and even fourth opinion? Why not change your diet? Why not consider doing things a little differently?
I want to live. Oddly enough, I’ve noticed that I’m feeling happier than I have in years now despite having stage 4 cancer.
I have a new-found hunger for life. And i am willing to do whatever it takes to stay in the game.
Peace. – T