The results of the scans are in… And the news is good… Better than good…
My mammogram, bone scan, and PET scan show no more cancer in my bones or in my lymph nodes!!! Hell yeah!
Yes, you read that right. The cancer in my femur bone, back, and a gazillion lymph nodes from my chest to my throat is no longer showing up on any of the scans. The only remaining detectable cancer in my body seems to be confined to my left breast. And even that has shrunk considerably – down from 6cm and 4cm to a measly .5cm and 1.5cm.
What!??!!! You wanna piece of me cancer?? I don’t think so bitch!!
I am still in a bit of shock. I find myself randomly weeping tears of joy at odd times during the day. I am trying to fully digest what this means.
In the here & now, this means I get a nice chemo vacation. Another hell yeah! I will continue on weekly Herceptin (which is my amazing targeted therapy for HER2 cells that only takes 30 mins to drip into my port and has virtually no side effects)… Plus I’m adding a new pill- Tamoxifen – to the mix. Must admit I am not thrilled about taking the Tamoxifen. But I’m gonna give it a chance.
I’ll continue to meet with my oncologist on a regular basis and monitor my body for any suspicious changes. Then I go for another set of scans in about 4 months.
So what do I do with this gift of time??? Travel of course!!!
I’m off to Toronto on Saturday… And now planning trips to visit my family and friends in NYC (a given!), Massachusetts, Nashville, and Vancouver & Bowen Island. And I’m cramming it all in before my next set of scans. Gotta do it now while I’m feeling good. I have no guarantee that this gift I’ve been given (of time, health and life) will continue. So I must seize the day.
Of course, once you are diagnosed with stage 4 breast cancer you are always a stage 4 breast cancer patient. With us metastatic patients the words “cured” or “in remission” are never used. Right now it seems my cancer cells are retreating. Hibernating. But I know they will not hesitate to go buck-wild again if given the chance. I cannot get cocky. I cannot be lazy. I need to remain vigilant with my new lifestyle. I cannot let down my guard.
It’s weird… Even though the news is beyond good… It almost feels too good to be true.
I know I must continue to use this cancer as a teaching tool. To see that it has come to awaken something inside me. To keep me in check. To be a lifelong partner that forces me to stay true to myself. To earn each day of my life. To reevaluate what is important. To discover and pursue my passions. To offer me the opportunity to help others.
Hopefully you all can learn some of these lessons without having to be diagnosed with a chronic or terminal illness.
It’s time for all of us to wake up. Live life. Change our mindset. Embrace all the possibilities that lie within us.
And live it up! Hell yeah! – T