What a fantastic weekend!!
The fabulous Auntie L returned on Friday for another week long helping visit. Yay! And hubby and I took off to Cincinnati on Saturday for an overnight adventure to celebrate our 9 year wedding anniversary (the NY City Hall 2 minute wedding – not the spiritual ceremony in San Francisco). This was our first night away (together) from Miss M since she was born almost 3 years ago. A much needed opportunity to reconnect and remember why we love each other. A reaffirmation of our commitment to one another and our life together. And of course, a chance to sleep in late, order room service, and eat breakfast in bed. Amen!
With each day that passes I am learning more and more about the limits of my new life and body. I realize that I can’t handle the same amounts of activity… or booze… or rich food that I used to… The Pinot Grigio and chocolate cake I had last night left me feeling crappy in a way that almost makes it not worth the few moments of pleasure it gave me. I am trying to establish my new normal. Figuring out how far I can push things and still feel good.
Even with metastatic breast cancer I’m still enjoying life.
Maybe things aren’t as awful as we imagine them to be. Life in Ohio ain’t all that bad. Not nearly as awful as I thought it might be. Stage 4 breast cancer? Yeah, it sucks a lot of the time. But it hasn’t made my life totally awful.
Maybe it’s really about what you make of the turmoil and not the turmoil itself. Shit happens to everyone. Life has lots of sucky moments. But life only becomes truly awful if we allow it to be.
I will not allow it. Just use your lemons to make lemonade.
Peace. – T