Wow! What an intense couple of days!
First, I have to admit it’s been a bit of an adjustment flying solo this week. I realized that if I am gonna be in treatment for the long haul, I will need to hire some help. Although everyone’s been great about flying out to Ohio to help, we all know this can’t go on forever. And taking care of myself, the day-to-day household stuff, and a 2 year old is totally exhausting!
It doesn’t help matters that Miss M now seems to be getting the infamous cold that has been passed around the family. She’s been cranky as all hell this week. Tantrums for every single little thing. I mean everything.
Then – a miracle… Today Miss M and I had a beautiful day together. No tantrums. Just enjoying quality time at the park, listening to the birds sing, playing on the see-saw… A nice lunch at Bakehouse (again!)… And a giddy kitchen dance party with old school tracks like De La Soul’s Me, Myself, and I… Classic! … Miss M and I were striking poses and doing yoga moves and laughing it up.
And the little miracles have been aplenty the last few days. All stemming from the outpouring of love, concern, and support I continue to receive. It is never ending. Each day brings another amazing email, blog comment, gift, card, thoughtful package in the mail, or generous donation.
This is a taste of what i’m talking about…
My girlfriend Liz in NYC who sent me the most delicious (and healthy) chocolate I have ever tasted in my life. Everyone MUST try it! The company is Rox Chox – based out of Portland, Oregon… And then there are the books that folks keep sending me – Thank you to whoever it was that sent the book Between Me and the River: Living Beyond Cancer: A Memoir – (There was no note in the Amazon box!)… And for the stranger from Bowen who sent me the blessing, “For a Friend, On the Arrival of Illness” written by John O’Donohue – I took some of the questions to my meditation session today… Amazing… And to the fabulous staff at Miss M’s preschool – Overfield– who sent a touching card and informed me that Miss M’s tuition for the remainder of the school year would be taken care of – Hello!!! This card actually generated tears – not a common occurrence with me… And then there was my close west coast friend Lisa Marie Bhattacharya, RHN who took an hour out of her busy schedule to give me a free nutrition session and clear up a number of questions I had about my diet (which deserves its own special blog).
Just when you think the outpouring of love couldn’t get any bigger… It does.
On Wednesday alone, I had over 1,600 hits on my blog! It took me almost 2 hours to go through all the emails and messages. After my dad posted about my situation on his site (spiderrobinson.com) and it appeared on boingboing the science fiction community and über intellectuals came out to support my cause – Big time!
Then I hear from my good friends on Bowen Island that they want to plan a benefit for me – Another benefit!!! For me??!!? And these people, in a community of around 3,000 people, who just 2 years ago rallied to help my mom during her battle with cancer, still have enough energy and love to take up the rally once again.
This has all gone way beyond what I imagined it could be. And it reminded me of the importance of believing in abundance. It does exist.
There is enough love for everyone. If you are open to it, and ready to embrace it, the love is always there.
So it is my goal to share all this love I receive – with the rest of the world – through my actions and through my words. If my blog puts a smile on someone’s face or gives somebody something new to think about or offers a reminder about the lessons we all so easily forget in the daily madness then I feel I’m working towards my goal.
This is my new challenge – the challenge for all of us… To acknowledge and receive love and abundance and then put it back out there into the world.
Deep gratitude to each and every one of you. Let’s keep the love flowing. – T