Happy Valentine’s Day everyone!!
So the big news you’ve all been waiting for… My lovely white blood count… Well, unfortunately (or fortunately depending on how you look at it), my count only rose by 200. Putting me at 1,600 this morning. Not high enough for chemo.
But I did get my Herceptin (and a bonus afternoon to myself while Miss M was in daycare). And this also means I won’t have to deal with any yucky side effects during the week when no one is here to provide back up support.
So maybe it was meant to be this way after all.
Today I also attended my first breast cancer support group at the local hospital. Interestingly enough the topic of discussion was alternative and complementary treatments – right up my alley… So I spoke of how i’m trying to keep my white blood cells up by using natural methods instead of pharmaceuticals and everyone seemed very intrigued at this foreign and unfamiliar way of doing things. Turns out only me and one other lady there has ever tried anything other than what the doctors tell you to do. While a lot of the holistic stuff just seems second nature to me, I’m realizing a big segment of the population has no clue about this sort of stuff. So we went on to have a lively discussion about energy work, supplements, and the power of the mind. And then we traded stories about losing our hair and having fun with wigs. All in all a great night.
One thing I continuously notice in my journey is how much younger I am than all the other cancer patients I encounter. On some level I get that all our experiences are similar and I know I can learn a lot from everyone – no matter the demographics… And yet I would still love to find some metastatic stage 4 reading materials geared towards the needs of a young mom and not just women in their 60’s trying to break the news to their grandkids.
I would so love to chat with other cancer moms who are trying to balance their needs with those of their family… Trying to figure out who’s gonna watch the kids while they go for their umpteenth MRI… Trying to be fully present and available as a mom even when you’re totally shot from chemo…
I’ve put calls into two organizations to find a “mentor” in the same boat I’m in – And so far no luck. I’ve also signed up for another cancer support group in Dayton that is specifically for young folks. So we’ll see.
In the meantime I continue to gather wisdom from every source possible. You never know where the answers will lie.
Peace. – T