First of all let me say thank you – once again – to everyone out there who’s praying and channeling good energy my way. Yesterday’s chemo session was one of the smoothest thus far. No extreme reactions. Faster than usual. And minimal chemo foggyness at the end of the day.
I am convinced this had something to do with all the positivity and blessings people are sending me. I am feeling it. And it is helping.
We did switch from the Taxol to the Taxotere – Much better… And next week we’re switching from IV Benadryl to regular over-the-counter Benadryl – at a lower dosage (so I should be even less foggy at the end of the day).
Thanks to everyone who offered suggestions on other ways to boost my white blood cells. I’m compiling a list to bring to my oncologist for our next meeting on Monday. For now, they want me to continue taking the white blood cell booster shots 3x/week. Yay – more doctor’s appointments!
I am starting to realize what a full time job it is to manage a serious chronic illness and strive to be a truly healthy human being.
Endless doctors appointments… bloodwork… treatment… consultations with genetics counselors, physical therapists, specialists… medical bills… psychotherapy… support groups… finding time for physical exercise, meditation, complementary treatments… researching every option, alternative, supplement, suggestion… Eating the right things – And not eating the things I really want to eat…
When I dropped off Miss M at daycare this week to go to chemo she grabbed me and whined, “No, I don’t want you to go the doctor’s.” And when she was playing with hubby the other day she said, “I can’t right now. I have to get blood work.” What other 2 year old says this stuff??? As much as we try to shield her from what is going on – it still seeps through. How can it not? Especially when I literally am going to the doctor 5 days a week.
Taking care of myself is my new full-time job. And although I’m not getting paid in the traditional sense of the word, I guess you could say the payment I receive is the continuation of my life.
This is serious business. xxx – T