Feeling Groovy

It’s hard for me to believe sometimes that I really do have cancer.

I don’t feel sick.  I’ve gone through two rounds of weekly chemo without getting nauseous, or throwing up, or feeling much pain at all.  I’m not really feeling any side effects.  My hair is still in place.  I still have energy.

In the two days since I was pumped with chemo and hormone drugs for almost 4 hours straight I’ve just been living my life…  Baking blueberry scones from scratch with Miss M, exercising, getting things done, going for lunch with Auntie Cole, and I even managed to squeeze in a team bowling night tonight with the crew from hubby’s job (although I opted to watch rather than bowl).

Everything seems incongruent.  How can I, this seemingly healthy, normal feeling, energetic person have stage IV breast cancer?  Could I really have cancer spreading all through my body and bones like the scans say?  Maybe they got my scans mixed up with someone else???

In the back of my mind, I’m still preparing for the worst.  I’m aware that all the side effects of my illness and treatment may come around to whack me in the weeks to come.

Or maybe I’ll just keep cruising through this.

Regardless, I’m just enjoying the fact that – today – I feel good.  Cuz in reality, today is all we got.

Love to all.  – T

10 Responses

  1. Cruise on sister, cruise on… Erin sent along video of the O’Neil/Rubbicco clan cruising on the ice for Jamie’s 30th-everyone sends their love! Soooo thrilled you are living life my love. Ohio here I come!!!!

    • Dear Terri,
      Thinking of you and sooo sorry to hear this news. If I can help you sometimes by taking you for your treatment, I’d be most happy to. Mary and I could also have a play date with M sometime if that would help you.

      I’ll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

  2. You don’t know me but I know your Aunt Dori. You seem to be a truly amazing person! Keep up the good fight! You are in my prayers!

  3. Hi Terri Luanna: I just read your blogs and wanted to add my sincere best wishes and thoughts to help you through your journey. Tomorrow I’ll write your name in our prayer list. You’ll have people here in Florida adding our strength. I remember you as a little girl visiting your Grandmother across from our home on Patton Street; Good luck and love, Lucille & Joe Barbero

  4. Absolutley cherish and remember today as a great day! Kepp on keeping on – my prayers each day will be as good as today!

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