Living Life

It’s kind of odd how life just continues to go on – even in the face of stage IV cancer.

These last few days I’ve been feeling almost “normal”.  Aside from the little twinges of pain here and there, I feel strong, healthy, and clearheaded.  I stopped taking my anti-nausea meds all together and feel perfectly fine.  No throwing up, no more dizzy spells, no weird side effects.  It’s almost like i’m my old self again.  Almost like I don’t have cancer.

And as such, I’ve been acting like my old self.  Taking Miss M out, hanging with hubby, having friends over for dinner, getting stuff done, and having fun.

While I realize every week is not guaranteed to be like this, I’m still hoping I’ll be one of those people who skates through chemo and just goes about living my life pretty much as I did before.  That was my plan from the get-go and I’m sticking with it.  I have heard from other people that chemo has a tendency to sneak up on you.  That 4 or 6 or 8 weeks in, your body gets weak and the chemo grabs a hold of you and clamps down.  So I’m trying to prepare myself for that scenario as well.

The key is to stay open.  It’s not what life throws at you that determines your happiness it’s your reaction to it.  Although it’s hard to resist getting caught up in the anger, sadness, and despair of my diagnosis – I know I can’t.  I can’t get stuck there.  The cancer feeds off stress and negative energy.  So instead, I must surround and fill myself with positivity and hope.

And we all must enjoy the good days when we have them.

Cheers.  – T